I have a feeling that a lot of the girls that have shifted to “clean eating” as a form of recovery are just trading one set of disordered behaviors for another. It isn’t healthy to eat healthy all the time. It isn’t healthy to limit yourself to a small amount of food groups and count your macros. Eating pasta and burgers is part of healthy normal eating, while “clean eating” implies that there are still foods that are “bad” to eat. If anything, you’re the one doing recovery the “right” way, in my opinion.
Plus, there’s a whole class element to it too. The majority of people do not have the money and resources to “eat clean.” It worries me that the type of body type promoted by that “community” is just another ideal that involves manipulating the body away from its natural state to fit a standard, instead of accepting the body for what it is. Like fuck #strongnotskinny; a body doesn’t have to be “strong” to be valuable and worthy of love.
I’d suggest unfollowing and distancing yourself from the types of people that promote a form of ED recovery that risks transitioning into orthorexia. I personally find them very triggering and invalidating. There are lots of people out there that are actually trying to develop a normal and well-balanced relationship with food. Maybe you could follow some people who do MinnieMaud, for instance (though I think that’s also a bit problematic since it involves counting calories).
My point is, your recovery is so valid and you’re doing great. Don’t let a clique of wealthy girls on the internet make you feel like you’re not doing the right thing.
