Author: frivvy89
The writer in me is frustrated and irritable. And has been the past few weeks, ever since I got that little urge, that sudden and unexpected desire to write Morokia again. Come on, Em, let’s get back into it. Or the story will never be told.But it’s not good enough, another voice answered it, sadly, to be followed swiftly by another. And we need to focus on the job search.That’s your priority right now, Em. Get a job!! Earn some money!! Too long have you been here relying on mam and dad to provide for you!! Lazy, hopeless girl…Like a…
Breaking an addiction often involves some form of abstinence, yet for people addicted to food, abstinence isn’t an option. Eating disorders aren’t like addictions to drugs or alcohol, Sarah Adler, PsyD, and her colleague Debra Safer, MD, explained to me as we sat in Safer’s office discussing the origins of their new book, The DBT® Solution for Emotional Eating: A Proven Program to Break the Cycle of Bingeing and Out-of-Control Eating. “You can stop drinking alcohol or using drugs by going cold turkey,” said Adler. “But you need food to survive. You can’t say, ‘I’m going to stay away from this…
I devoured the information there and, with the encouragement offered by this community, I soon dove into the thrilling promise of re-feeding and repairing my body. I expected that my boundless eating and faithful adherence to the now-termed Homeodynamic Recovery Method would ferry me right back to my old body, and my old self, in a matter of months. However, I had to not only accept but embrace a long and jostling journey.During the perilous two and a half years that comprised my path to remission, I wrote it all down—my ambivalence about my expanding body, my realizations about weight…
Women in treatment for eating disorders need more nuanced information about reproductive health, and more thought needs to be given to how and why fertility information is delivered, according to new research from the University of East Anglia (UEA). That’s part of an overall set of findings that suggest those with eating disorders (EDs) should have more input into their treatment and how medical information is communicated. The research, ‘Responses to warnings about the impact of eating disorders on fertility: A qualitative study’, is published today in Sociology of Health and Illness. The research was led by Dr Su Holmes,…
Hopped off the bus, pulled up my hood; scurried along at a somewhat breathless trot along the rain soaked streets of Portlaoise. Across the railway bridge I pattered along, my little black rucksack bouncing upon my back, my hair, having long escaped my hood, fluffing up around my face in messy wet ringlets that held on to the tiny beads of drizzle in the air.My little red bike with the pink basket on the front was patiently awaiting me at the bike racks. I slung the handles of my bag across the handlebars, wheeled it out, whipped one leg over…
It’s been a while since I last sat down to blog. I’d like to credit it to not having the time, which I could probably do. This term has by far been my busiest yet, with taking 19 credits, being a manager of the gymnastics team, which includes being at all practices and meets (including travel ones), having a boyfriend, spending time with my other friends, working out, and staying committed to my faith. In all honesty though, this blog just hasn’t been a priority for me recently. And while I was feeling a decent amount of guilt about that…
Dear Mam, Im sorry for getting on your nerves last night, for answering back when you criticised me, and then going off to cry afterwards. I’m sorry that I can’t take criticism better, that I didn’t manage to do what Matt did last weekend. I’m sorry for letting you down again. I promise I’ll try better the next time. Im also sorry for getting so stressed about the job situation and for not having a job by now in the first place. I’m sorry Im no longer going in April. Im sorry you’re going to have to put up with me for…
More than anything, my recovery journey once closely resembled an uphill battle, a struggle.A vertical climb upon an exposed rock, with nothing to protect me from the the rain that came pouring down, and the harsh, relentless blasts of cold air slapping against my cheeks. It left my hands red raw and freezing, rubbed and scrapaed at the delicate skin there till it took on the texture of harshly abraded sandpaper. In its wake the icy wind dotted my face with beads of icy precipitation, beads which would remain, suspended there, like frozen tear drops halted in mid stream. They…
And so I sat in my little writing room with the laptop open and my fingers resting on the keys; poised to type, but today, the words would not quite come. I wanted to blog but the tiny number on the page view statistic page mocked me. Who cares about your stupid work Em? You might as well give up right now.I know though deep down I will not. I will always be a writer, and I will be drawn back to it even when – as I do, quite frequently – feel disheartened or disillusioned about my work. Even…
I watched Andrew Thibault’s amazing new film on the harmful effects of stimulants with fascination and horror. This is not an easy flick to watch. For those of you who feel you are seasoned activists familiar with all the grim facts, this film may provide new, even more disturbing information. As I saw the drug Vyvanse featured as highly dangerous, I waited, hoping to see some mention of its indicated use for Binge Eating Disorder. Sure enough, one of the speakers had even self-diagnosed herself with BED, insinuating that BED was yet another pharma-created phony psych disorder. I was further…